Monday, December 27, 2010

Universal child

Hello friends,
      May the Christmas spirit, with all it's goodness and cheer, remain with us throughout the coming year. Know that you are loved; yes, even in those deep, dark recesses where you think no one sees your pain, your suffering, your addictions, and all the other kinds of Hell that plague a human heart. God see it all and Loves us so much!
     I'm attaching the lyrics and video to the song by Annie Lennox entitled, "Universal child." It's from her latest, "A Christmas Cornucopia." My brother turned me onto to this CD a few days before Christmas and I haven't been able to stop listening...This one especially goes out to Carrot and Stephen...Heart y'all.
For me, this is JC telling us just a fraction of the things He wants for us, and has in store for us:

How many mountains must you face before you learn to climb.
I'm gonna give you what it takes, my universal child.

I'm gonna try to find a way to keep you safe from harm.
I'm gonna be a special place, a shelter from the storm.
And I can see you, you’re everywhere, your portrait fills the sky.
I'm gonna wrap my arms around you, my universal child.

And when I look into your eyes, so innocent and pure.
I see the shadow of the things that you've had to endure.
I see the tracks of every tear that ran ran down your face.
I see the hurt, I see the pain, I see the human race.
I can feel you, your everywhere, shining like the sun.
And I wished to god that kids like you could be like everyone.

How many tumbles must it take before you learn to fly.
I'm going to help you spread your wings, my universal child.

I can feel you everywhere shining like the sun.
And I wished to god that kids like you could be like everyone.
And I wished to god that kids like you could be like everyone.





"I am a little pencil in the hand of a writing God who is sending a love letter to the world." Mother Theresa

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Suffering

Hello friends,
     Please pray and send positive thoughts to all couples in the process of conceiving; remember and say prayers for the lonely, the homeless, and those without Hope in their lives. Jesus, please have mercy on these souls, and send an angel in human form to comfort them. Amen.
     I know writing about suffering during Christmas may seem an odd thing to do, but it's where I found myself yesterday as I was reflecting on Mary, Jesus' mother.

     The bible doesn't say if Mary realized exactly what her Yes would entail, but she did receive hints about what life with Jesus would be like, when Simeon, upon seeing baby Jesus, tells her (Luke 2:35), "...and a sword will pierce your own soul too," which I interpret to mean the pain she was to feel at the Crucifixion of her son.
     When my heart grows heavy with sadness at whatever perceived sorrow I am feeling, I remind myself of Mary, the Mother of us all, and the true Agony she felt upon seeing Jesus hanging above her. I unite my sorrows with hers, and I ask for the same faith, hope, and strength she had.
     Our society likes to avoid grieving and who can blame it? Who wants to cry their heart out, or be depressed for days on end? No one! And yet, no matter how we try to avoid pain, or cheat it, it comes to us.
     Mary's "Yes," doesn't end at Christ's crucifixion though. We are a people of the Resurrection!
     Jesus is our hope. He is the Ultimate Healer. Invite Him into your life today. He won't guarantee a life free from difficulties or misfortune, but He will provide you with what you need to deal with any malady.
     May you feel God's graces pouring on you each and every day.
     Merry Christmas!
"I am a little pencil in the hand of a writing God who is sending a love letter to the world." Mother Theresa

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Trippin'

Hello friends,
      Special prayers of healing and strength for a very special person; for all marriages and single people, may God continue to bless all of our paths and shower His graces on us, daily. In Jesus name. Amen.
     As many of you may or may not know, my family and I went to Natchitoches, LA, (pronounced knack-uh-dish) for a mini-vacay this past weekend.
      I must commend Carlton for organizing this lovely excursion. He simply outdid himself as far as Christmas destinations are concerned. He also put together a splendid agenda for us; from the scenic drive there, to historic plantations, a fab fireworks display, and a minor basilica for good measure. As we stealthily drove through quaint, tiny towns, the decades old architecture seemed to be beckon us to their sleepy neighborhoods and store shops.
     The first place we stopped was Woody's Smokehouse, "The Jerky Capital of the World," for some delish deli sandwiches, which brought us to our second stop, Davy Crockett National Forest. Here's how the 'official' website describes the park, "The Davy Crockett National Forest, named for the legendary pioneer, contains more than 160,000 acres of East Texas woodlands, streams, recreation areas, and wildlife habitat. Located in Houston and Trinity Counties, the forest is centrally located within the Neches and Trinity River basins. The Davy Crockett National Forest was proclaimed a National Forest by President Franklin Roosevelt on October 15, 1936." I know now why I always liked Roosevelt. :)

     God has great surprises for us, if we only open our eyes and hearts to His graces. I had no idea I'd be blessed to step into a minor basilica. What is a minor basilica? According to the Catholic Encyclopedia, "In architecture, the term basilica signifies a kingly, and secondarily a beautiful, hall. The name indicates the Eastern origin of the building, but it is in the West, above all in Rome, that the finest examples of the basilica are found. Between 184 and 121 B.C. there were built in the Forum at Rome the basilicas of Porcia, Fulvia, Sempronia, and Opimia; after 46 B.C. the great Basilica Julia of Caesar and Augustus was erected. These buildings were designed to beautify the Forum and to be of use both for market purposes and for the administration of justice. They were open to the public and were well lighted."
Minor basilicas in the spiritual sense are closer to God, kidding, no, it just means in the hierarchy of churches are concerned, the minor basilica is a great treasure.
Here are a few privileges given a minor basilica, "These "privileges", besides conferring a certain precedence before other churches (not, however, before the cathedral of any locality), include the right of the conopaeum, the bell, and the cappa magna. The conopaeum is a sort of umbrella (also called papilio, sinicchio, etc.), which together with the bell is carried processionally at the head of the clergy on state occasions. The cappa magna is worn by the canons or members of the collegiate chapter, if seculars, when assisting at Office. The form of the conopaeum, which is of red and yellow silk, is well shown in the arms of the cardinal camerlengo (see vol. VII, p. 242, coloured plate) over the cross keys.


And here's a photo of the Minor Basilica in Natchitoches:
     I highly recommend this lovely "Christmas town," for your next 'winter' holiday vacation. It's got the right pace (slow), attitude (people are friendly), and small town feel without being snobby, or cliquish. Just a real family treat. Book early, though, B and B's, and hotels, fill up quickly.


"I am a little pencil in the hand of a writing God who is sending a love letter to the world." Mother Theresa

Sunday, December 5, 2010

You, Lord, are my only good.

Hello friends,
      Heavenly Father, prayers for those asking me for prayers, esp: Carrot, lol, and her healthy twins, a father with heart issues, and the passing of a beloved grandfather. Prayers for all marriages everywhere; for singles and marrieds to stay true to God's path and will for their lives; for agnostics and atheists, that through my actions I may lead them closer to You, Lord. In Jesus' name, Amen.
     Yesterday, when I was in the chapel for my hourly visit with the Lord, I began writing this blog:
You may wonder what I say when I'm in the chapel for an hour, sometimes more.
     Let me start by saying what I don't do: I don't complain about situations. Instead I "offer them up," and "give them" to God. I pray for everyone who's asked for prayers - and for those who don't ask, but certainly need them, lol - and I give many thanks.
     A few years ago I read The Shack, and one of the images that stayed with me from this book is the idea of Jesus being an outdoorsman. So, sometimes in adoration, I imagine He and I fishing together on a calm pond, or me laying on His chest by the pond/lake; as I lay on Him, I'm doing my best to saturate myself with His energy; His essence. Pretty sexy, huh? ;)
     Mostly I 'see' gorgeous rays of white light eminanting from His beautifully suspended body. This incandescent light engulfs me with His
Blessings, His Grace, and His Goodness. I close my eyes and let His Substance effuse me, the energy getting stronger as time passes.
     In short, I feast on Jesus.
     Sometimes the hour creeps by and I'm having a hard time focusing on the Lord, or 'seeing' anything, or the opposite is true; I have too much to tell our Lord and Savior and an hour's not enough time for everything.
     I've also been practicing Lectio Divina - the fine art of meditating on scripture - while in Holy Hour, and it lead me to a passage I didn't understand. I implored God to help me with it's meaning. The scripture, Revelations, Ch 2, verse 4, reads, "Yet I hold this against you: you have lost the love you had at first." (and here was where my pen broke in three places - no kidding!) I put the pieces in my purse, and went back to meditating and 'seeing' the Lord.
     Later, I realized what God was telling me with this passage. Before my Advent journey began, I would sit and submerge myself in God's love during Holy Hour. It was all I could handle at the time, and still is, really. I wouldn't even speak to Jesus, I just sat in His Presence, contemplating His Being, and His Unconditional Love for Me. But since I've started this sojourn, when I've been in God's house, I'm reading spiritual books I've been given, or the bible, and not devoting my FULL attention to God-Jesus. The Revelations passage, and my pen breaking, woke me up to what God is trying to tell me: when I've got an hour with Him, I need to spend it fully concentrating on Him, just like I did when I first participated in Adoration. No outside distractions of any kind, not even to clue my four readers, lol, on what I do in Adoration! LOL
     Good is good, all the time.

"I am a little pencil in the hand of a writing God who is sending a love letter to the world." Mother Theresa

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Song of Songs, chapter 1

Hello world-wide-web,
     Happy Thanksgiving to my friends in the states. Lord, bless us to always be thankful for everything you send our way; yes, even for the bad stuff. Because ultimately, Lord, You have our backs - especially during the difficult times; help us to remember that. In Jesus' Name. Amen.
Dear Reader, if you have not read the Song of Songs in the bible, what are you waiting for??!! It is the most delicious, romantic, lyrical, and loving songs I have ever read.
I learned tonight that there are three ways to look at this particular book in the bible: literally, spiritually, and physically.
It was fairly controversial at the time it was written because the language was considered sexual and, quite frankly, people didn't know how to read it, much less understand it.
I do hope you take the time to read it and make a journal entry of some of the verses you like.
I found these sentences most memorable and the words that are italicized are my comments on the sentences chosen:
Chapter 1 - Love's Desires A wooing of sorts...
Love's Boast (these are subtitles beneath the main title) - "My own vineyard I have not cared for."I was not caring for my own vineyard. I am changing that as you read this...
Love's Inquiry - "Follow the tracks of the flock and pasture the young ones near the shepherd's camp." God-Jesus is the shepherd and He has asked us to help others get closer to Him, thus the phrase, "pasture the young ones near the shepherd's camp."
Love's union - the word "nard" was used and I was curious about what this meant; turns out a nard is a precious perfume, a figure of the bride.
"While the King sat at his table, my nards sent forth a fragrance." Christ is the King, of course, and we, His lovers, want to entice Him with a delicious odor, in order for Him to be closer to us.
"My lover is for me a sachet of myrrh that rests between my breasts." This is certainly racy words for the bible! Alas, in our 'modern times,' we have lost the fine art of seduction. By the way, Myrrh is also a sweet-smelling perfume.
I am only posting parts of the SoS, so as to hopefully inspire you to read more.

God bless you, each and every day, and know that with every step you take, God walks with you.

"I am a little pencil in the hand of a writing God who is sending a love letter to the world." Mother Theresa

Sunday, November 21, 2010

My Advent Journey - the Beginning

Hello world-wide-web,
      Heavenly father, thank you for always being with us, for all the blessings you shower us with, and for all answered prayers. In Jesus' Name. Amen.
The "Season of Prayer," (this 'Season' being Advent) began officially on November 15th, which was a perfect day for me: celebrating my mom's birth AND my last Final of 2010.
Advent is a time of preparation for the coming of Christ at Christmas.
The "Season of Prayer," journey entails (1)praying and studying scripture, (2)attending The Well (a closer look at the previous Sunday's readings) (3)taking a class entitled, "Intimacy with God," and (4)spending five hours in Adoration a week.
I can't remember, and I'm too lazy to check, but I think I've written about Adoration before, if so, my apologies for the redundancy.
Adoration is a tremendously powerful time with our Lord. I love the way it is described on the website http://www.catholicbible101.com/,"Adoration of the Blessed Sacrament is one of the best ways to spend time with Jesus. There is so much noise around us these days. Spending a quiet hour with Jesus in humble adoration will bring many graces and blessings to you. Things that you have never even considered before will now be made present to you. Bad things that would have happened to you will now not happen. As He told Peter, "Could you not spend one hour with me?"


I will mention, briefly, how it has been a struggle to reach the five hours this week: temptations abounded. A good trait God has blessed me with, though, is that of commitment. I know the Almighty would not 'disown' me, or be disappointed that I didn't make my goal, but I would be disappointed in myself. Thanks be to God, for He has put others in my life who are on this journey (the journey of life and the journey in this "Season of Prayer.") - they have been my comfort, strength, and inspiration. Jesus with skin. Their support has helped me get closer to my goal; I have one hour left, which I hope to reach tomorrow, God willing.
Dear Reader, I want to take you on this "Season of Prayer," journey with me. I pray that you receive all the blessings I receive from being in Adoration, and that this blog will give you hope, love, faith and peace as you walk with Jesus and me, as well as inspire you to 'step up' your prayer life; goodness comes from praying.
Jesus has paid our tab: a round of blessings for everyone!

"I am a little pencil in the hand of a writing God who is sending a love letter to the world." Mother Theresa

Sunday, November 7, 2010

How to stay young

Hello world-wide-web,
     Heavenly Father, we mostly come seeking things from you, but I also want to take the time to thank you for everything in my life: my family and friends, for their health and mine, for a roof over my head, for clothes on my back, for a car that brings me and takes me safely to and from my destinations. In all that I do and say, may I have a Greater Faith in You today. In Jesus' Name. Amen.
The title is "How to stay young." It doesn't say How to Look Young - you're on your own there. ;)
I got this in an email, and you've probably received it as well, but I like it enough to share:
1. Keep only cheerful friends.
The grouches pull you down.
(Keep this in mind if you are one of those grouches!)
2. Keep learning:
Learn more about the computer, crafts, gardening, whatever...
Never let the brain get idle. 'An idle mind is the devil's workshop.'
And the devil's name is Alzheimer's!
3. Enjoy the simple things.
4. Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you gasp for breath. And if you have a friend who makes you laugh, spend lots and lots of time with HIM/HER.
5.The tears happen: Endure, grieve, and move on.
The only person who is with us our entire life, is ourselves.
LIVE while you are alive.
6. Surround yourself with what you love: Whether it's family, pets, keepsakes, music, plants, hobbies, whatever...Your home is your refuge.
7. Cherish your health: If it is good, preserve it. If it is unstable, improve it. If it is beyond what you can improve, get help.
8. Don't take guilt trips...Take a trip to the mall, even to the next county, to a foreign country, but NOT to where the guilt is.
9. Tell the people you love that you love them, at every opportunity. I love you, my special friends.
10. Forgive now those who made you cry. You might not get a second chance...
Remember! Lost time can never be found.
Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle.
God bless us, everyone!
"I am a little pencil in the hand of a writing God who is sending a love letter to the world." Mother Theresa

Sunday, October 31, 2010

Humble Yourself

Hello world-wide-web,
Heavenly Father, thank you for continuing to love us no matter what stupid things we do, say or think. I am always amazed Heavenly Father, when I realize You truly love us Unconditionally. Teach me to be that way, Lord. Show me how it's done. I want to see everyone as You see them. In Jesus' name. Amen.
This past weekend I was Spiritually reminded again of how important humility is, in all circumstances. I was taking a walk around the park this past Saturday afternoon - when the weather was absolutely gorgeous - and I was talking to the Lord, offering up prayers.
Once I was done talking to Jesus, I began obsessing about a family situation - and maybe this happens to you too, my four loyal readers - when you're bored, you too tend to obsess over idiotic things. Well I took the obsessing a step further and was getting self-righteous, thinking I had all the answers, wondering why people don't just ask me what they should do, or what I would do in certain situations...Because I've 'got it all together' and could help them. LOL
That's when I heard Jesus say, "Don't EVER think you have all the answers, or know what's best for people! Leave that to Me. You are only to Love. That's all I made you for: Love. It was out of Love you were created, and out of Love you are to create positive relationships. Listen, I Love You despite all the foolishness you do, why would I feel any differently about your Brother or Sister?"
"Yes, Lord," and I really meant it. I was humbled and it was a good feeling - to know I don't have all the answers and I'm not responsible for other's actions. I only lead by example.
This thought hit me as well: I honestly believe people just want to be loved for who they are, and where they are in life. That's all any of us really wants. We know we do stupid things, but it's still nice to know we'll be accepted, despite these mess-ups.
The next time I feel like the $h1t, I'm going to pray to the Lord to take me down as only he can: gently.
God bless ya.
"I am a little pencil in the hand of a writing God who is sending a love letter to the world." Mother Theresa

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Awards assembly like no other

Hello world-wide-web,
     Thank you, Heavenly Father, for blessing me to move to such an amazing school. Specials prayers, Lord, for all those suffering at this moment, for those who are ill, and for those who have no one to pray for them, as well as for the agnostics and atheists. Bless me, Lord, with the help of the HS, to guide people to a new way of seeing You through my words and actions. In Jesus' Name. Amen.
The first nine weeks are coming to a close. The students have a half-day, as teachers get ready for parent-teacher conferences the following day. I learned that whenever we have a half day, we have an awards assembly, which is usually at the end of the nine weeks. This isn't unusual, many schools in the state of Texas probably have this ceremony. But I had no idea what I was in for when I walked my third grade students, along with the rest of third grade, and joined the fourth and fifth graders in the cafeteria.
First of all, this is the first time I've had a principal print out the A honor roll and A/B honor roll students from our grade books (the teachers normally do this, as well as fill in the certificates) AND have them printed out on nice certificate paper. Thanks principals!
Second of all, when we walked into the cafeteria, the lights are low and there's a disco ball shining on the stage - something new, I was told, for this year's ceremony - and fun dance music is blaring. The mood in the cafeteria is euphoric and the anticipation is palpable. I sit my students down and we watch the other grades pour in around us, filling up the entire cafeteria. Impressive. The students are talking, but the music is way louder than their chatter.
Our principal is on the stage, and she addresses us on the loud speaker and introduces the students who are in student council, who stand to be recognized. We clap for them enthusiastically.
Then our principal addresses us again, "Thanks for being here, students, staff, and parents as we celebrate the accomplishments of our students..." She goes on to emphasize the importance of attendance. Oh yeah, she also printed out the perfect attendance awards for us! :) Then she calls out the names of the perfect attendance winners for the third graders, for which the students stand to be recognized, and we aren't allowed to cheer for them until all the third grade students' names have been called.The students are really excited. Then the asst principal calls out the names of the fourth graders perfect attendance, and then the principal calls out the names of the fifth graders perfect attendance. They switch off and on like that for each award. 
It's time to honor the A/B honor roll students in each grade. The applause is even louder for this achievement.
A very special accolade goes to the students who are on all A Honor roll: they go up to the stage as the principal calls their names, and the asst principal puts a medallion around their neck. One of the students sitting close to me has made all A honor roll and I asked to see the medal: it is heavy with an emblem of books, science equipment and numbers. The strap is red and white. I show my students and encourage them to receive one in the next nine weeks. I had A/B honor roll students, but not any all A; not yet anyway. ;)
Thirdly, and here's where the assembly is at a fever pitch: it's time for the cheer award. The grade level with the loudest and best cheer receives the Spirit Stick - a nicely made stick with a 'pillow' at the top that has our mascot embroidered on it - for that nine weeks. It is a great honor to receive the spirit stick and the students are highly competitive.
Third grade starts off with it's cheer - "I'm bringing sexy back," by Justin Timberlake is the background music for our cheer (music only, the lyrics have been removed). It's fun and the students are enjoying themselves. They face the other grade levels as they cheer.
Then it's fourth grades turn. They are stomping and cheering with powerful force. It was as if the third graders gave a collective gasp after their cheer.
Then it was fifth grades turn: their student council members went on the stage and called things out to the fifth grade class and the fifth grade class answered - LOUDLY. They too stomped. And they clapped. "We will, we will, rock you!" Stomp, stomp. Clap. Clap.
The judges deliberated for only a few minutes and then gave the verdict: fifth grade won. A huge uproar was heard. We all clapped for them.
I just marvelled at the interaction of the grade levels. Every student in the different grades seemed aware of where they were in the order of things: third grade realizing they were the 'babies' (not in a bad way either), fourth graders the 'middle' child, and then fifth graders, the oldest. I felt like the students knew where their places were, and were proud to be there. I think overall this awards assembly was a commanding experience.
We intend to get that stick the next go around! We will and I'll tell you how when we do! :)
Blessings!

"I am a little pencil in the hand of a writing God who is sending a love letter to the world." Mother Theresa

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Confessions

Hello world-wide-web,
Heavenly Father,
     Thank you. In Jesus' Name. Amen.
As I'm waiting in line to go confession, I'm reflecting on this great sacrament Catholics have in our religion. My Protestant brothers and sisters don't understand the need to tell someone their sins. They are correct when they say you can go to your room and tell God what your sins are, but for me that's almost too easy. I almost feel like I can get away with everything and anything that way, because, really who am I accountable to? Yes, myself, and most certainly God, but I prefer to confess to someone with skin. Besides, how often would I actually go to my room and attest to my wrongdoings? For me, the priest is not God, but he represents Jesus on Earth. And even for all the scandals we as Catholics have suffered for the small number of pedophile priests - and No, I am NOT by ANY means saying the small number makes the behavior excusable - Hell no! -  I do believe my priest is a good man, who upholds our faith and the sanctity of all the sacraments, including confession. I fully have faith in God that this man of the cloth has come to do God's and Christ's bidding.
As I'm thinking these thoughts, and writing them down, I return to reflecting on what I'll acknowledge in the confessional. Once I enter the room, I'll have the option to sit in front of the priest, or I may kneel at a screen provided for privacy. My personal thought on the face-to-face or sitting with the priest, is this, "If I had the audacity to sin, then I should have the audacity to face the sin with the priest." I go face-to-face.
My confession will start with the prayer, "Forgive me father, for I have sinned. It's been (insert time) since my last confession."
The priest may read a passage from scripture.
Then I tell him my personal offenses - use your imagination - (you didn't actually think I was going to tell you, did you? ;) ). These are violations I have thought of, prayed over, and meditated on long before I stood in line at the confessional. I am truly sorry for the things I've done, and for not stepping up the plate and doing good when it needed to be done, and that's what makes telling the priest my faults so wonderful! It's time to release all the guilt that goes with sinning.
I will then say an Act of Contrition:
O my God, I am heartily sorry for having offended you and I detest all my sins, because I dread the loss of heaven and the pains of hell. But most of all because I have offended you, my God, who are all good and deserving of all my love. I firmly resolve with the help of your grace, to confess my sins, to do penance and to amend my life. Amen.
As I listen to the absolution, the sacramental forgiveness of the Church through the ordained priest, the priest and I will make the sign of the cross. If the priest closes by saying, "Give thanks to the Lord for He is good," I'll answer, "For His mercy endures forever."
At that powerful moment when I am forgiven and cleansed of my sins - I am humbled. I am forgiven - again!
I will leave the confessional, kneel in a pew, thank God for forgiving me, and do my penance. Then I walk out of the church, blissfully aware that I am a Child of God. :)
God bless you, everyone!
*Some of the information shared in this blog was taken from the website: http://www.catholic.org/prayers/confession.php if you'd like to know more about confession, please feel free to visit this website.
"I am a little pencil in the hand of a writing God who is sending a love letter to the world." Mother Theresa

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Death was cheated

Hello world-wide-web,
      Thank you Heavenly Father for all the heroes in our daily lives: ordinary people, like our family, friends and parents, who make our lives so much better. In Jesus' Name. Amen.
Brian Wood, a computer gaming designer from North Vancouver, and his pregnant wife, Erin, were driving home on Friday, September 17th. Nothing unusual about this, couples are happily married (remember, 50% of all marriages LAST), wives gets pregnant, and driving home is an everyday occurence.
On the other side of the freeway, two twenty-year-olds were high on drugs when the driver decided to take off her sweater and asked her friend to take the steering wheel while she did so. The truck swerved, crossed the center lane and headed straight for Brian and Erin. I think Brian's gaming ability came in handy as I imagine him assessing the situation quickly and breaking a hard right - causing the oncoming vehicle to crash into himself, but saving his wife and unborn child. Brian went straight to Heaven in that heroic act of love, and his wife and baby cheated death because of his ultimate sacrifice. Rest in peace, Brian; the world is better having had you in it.

"I am a little pencil in the hand of a writing God who is sending a love letter to the world." Mother Theresa

Saturday, September 18, 2010

My New Digs

Hello world-wide-web,
     Thanks, Lord, for the many blessings you've bestowed on my family, friends and especially me. I thank you for the continued healing of the couple who had a miscarriage, the child in the hospital, and for all triumphs over evil. Thank you for a smooth school-changing transition. Thank you for always having my back. In Jesus' Name. Amen.
     This is the second week at my new school and I feel like I am starting to understand how things are done in this new environment, and I'm relaxing more as my comfort level grows. Here are just some of the perks I've enjoyed: wearing jeans on Fridays and Mondays. Then there's "Fun Friday," where all the students who did their homework for the week get a half hour of 'free time'. The 'free time' is academic, of course; the students are shown a discovery channel video, or a Magic School bus show...in our area, since there are four teachers, one teacher serves as a 'study hall' teacher and all the students who didn't do their homework for the week are sent to her room, with their unfinished work to be done. The students who did their homework are sent to one of the other three teachers.
     I like the way duty is done as well: I have a half hour off every day, in addition to my conference time, while the other teachers take the students into their rooms for recess, or, if the weather is nice and not too hot, outside to a playground. In our case, I have the first half hour free. During the second half hour, the teachers on recess duty are off, and we take the kids to lunch. I didn't know how I'd like this arrangement at first, but I've liked it thus far.
     My teammates are nice, highly supportive of each other, and friendly. The staff in general, for being such a big school, has been highly welcoming. The principal hugged me the first day she met me.I thought it would be strange driving and walking into a new school, but I already feel like I've been at this school for years, in a good way.
     The best part of my job, of course, is the students. They are a rambunctious, talkative, intelligent group of children. We have a nice mix too: African Americans, Indian, Muslim, European American, and Mexican-Americans.  My own students still don't know what to make of me: am I mean, or just kidding around with them? I see the quizzical LoOkS on their faces as they seem to be asking themselves, "Is she seriously going to make me accountable for my actions? (you bet!)" "Will she really call my parents if I do something terrible?" (of course!) "Did she just give me cub cash for answering that question correctly?" (indeed I did!) "Is treasure box for real?" (uh-huh!) "Is she just plain crazy?!" (!!!)
     This coming week I am a 'star'; meaning I'll be 'featured' on the morning announcements. I need to introduce myself and come up with some interesting things to tell everyone about myself...I'll ask my students for some suggestions...

"I am a little pencil in the hand of a writing God who is sending a love letter to the world". Mother Theresa

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Curly hair Haven!

Hello world-wide-web,
      Thank you Heavenly Father for blessing Olgita to tell me about this wonderful salon!
      To all my naturally curly-haired friends and readers, I need to shamelessly give a plug to this FAB place.
     The owner, Claudia, cut my hair yesterday.
      But before I go into greater detail about The Styling Hutch, I must tell you, if you are curly headed and don't know about and use the products of a woman in NYC named Ouidad, then you are truly missing out on some great hair goods! I mention Ouidad products because Ouidad also designed a way to cut curly hair - the way it is meant to be cut!
     Claudia, right here in our sweet Plano, Tx, has been taught by Ouidad's professionals and uses her techniques when cutting curly hair. Claudia told me as she clipped away, "I am a great hair stylist, but when I first learned how to cut curly hair I wanted to go back to all my curly-headed clients and apologize. Curly hair is supposed to be cut differently from straight-haired people and I didn't know that! I do now, though, and have been cutting it properly going on six years!"
     I know the basics of curly hair: don't wash often - once a week, if not longer - use a shampoo that doesn't have sulfate in it, Ever. Deep condition at least once a week. Sometimes I just use Conditioner and don't shampoo at all. Use a leave-in conditioner. Condition, condition, condition, as curly hair is often dry, not to mention coarse, but don't despair, as there are products to make curly hair softer. Check out Oudad's products for yourself at http://www.ouidad.com/  and/or google "Naturally curly hair," to learn more about your hair.
     Since I did know 'a little something' about  my hair, Claudia mentioned to me, "All you need is a good hair cut." I felt like I was getting a hair cut for the very first time! I am in recovery from receiving hair cuts for straight hair, lol. I am not blaming hair stylists for not cutting my hair properly; they may not know there IS a way to cut curly hair, or don't have the money for the training, etc. I'm just glad I found Claudia. If you do go to her shop, please tell her I sent you.

Here's the info:
The Styling Hutch
3948 Legacy Dr. #105
Plano, Tx 75023
972-943-0732

I had Claudia take pictures of my cut:



Wow, what a dif a great haircut can make!

"I am a little pencil in the hand of a writing God who is sending a love letter to the world." Mother Theresa

God's plans

Hello world-wide-web,
     Prayers for everyone I said I'd pray for, especially with regard to health. Strengthen all marriages, Lord, and for all singles. Prayers for teachers everywhere: may they be blessed with plenty of patience, compassion and a sense of humor. Heavenly Father, thank you for changes in our lives. May we always remember to rely on You and Your will, and to seek Your will when we are unsure of what the future holds for us. Thank you for being with us throughout our lives; our journey is bearable because of You. In Jesus' Name. Amen.
     We think we know God's plans for us, but we don't. :) I certainly thought I did with regard to this school year. Already having two weeks of team teaching under my belt, I was settling into a groove, happy where I was planted.
     Then came Thursday afternoon. I was done with car pool duty (3:15ish) when my principal and assistant principal asked me into their office. I didn't think anything about this, since, hey, this is how things went when I was told I was going to team teach. I jokingly mentioned to the two administrators, "Haven't we already done something like this? More goodness to come, I suspect?"
     My principal responded, "It depends on how you look at it."
     Still, I'm an optimist, so no worries.
     Turns out the school district decided that since I only had six students in fourth grade, my talents were better served if I moved to another school and helped with eleven third-grade students there.
     Wow. Shocker. I wasn't expecting yet another move! I went into denial for the first couple of hours. Then later of course there was acceptance. Now I am completely on-board with the decision and happy to move. Yes, I am anxious about teaching a different grade level, meeting a new team, and being at a school where I don't know anyone, but I am a flexible professional and will do my best to help my student's be successful, while enjoying the change of scenery along the way. I went from thinking, "Wow, no one knows me," to "Wow, no one knows me!" he he. Brand new start.
     We told the students Friday afternoon about the changes. We were all sad, of course, but I assured them I will call and see how they are doing, as well as send emails to ask about their progress.
     My current team has been really sweet in saying good-bye: they bought me a gift card to Starbucks, a deliciously scented candle, some pretty paisley sticky pads, and bagels for our last meeting together. I will miss them. We spent six years (this would have been my seventh) together, but we are friends on FB, so we'll keep in touch.
     The priest at mass yesterday said that God wants us to keep Him #1 in our lives. "Without Jesus as the center of our lives, who knows what can happen to us? But with Jesus at our center, we can rest assured we are being taken care of."
     Check this out: my new school's name is Christie! I think of it this way: "Christ - ie," or "Christ, that Is." :)
     As the great Winston Churchill once said, "For myself I am an optimist - it does not seem to be much use being anything else." My thoughts exactly!
    
"I am a little pencil in the hand of a writing God who is sending a love letter to the world." Mother Theresa

Sunday, August 29, 2010

God is good, all the time

Hello world-wide-web,
     Heavenly Father, please bless and guide all eyes reading this blog, as well as all singles, marrieds, the widowed, the lonely, and those who have no one to pray for them. In Your Name, Lord. Amen.
      I am only three classes away from completing my master's in school counseling- Exciting! God willing, I will graduate Spring, 2011. Whenever I couldn't afford a class, or books, I'd ask God if this was the career He wanted for me, and *bam* the money invariably shows up right when I need it, and from unexpected places. I take this good fortune to mean God's resounding "Yes!" that I am on the path He has laid out for me. And so it is for all of us: remember that God has a blueprint for you. I was given yet another example of God's purpose, and confirmation of that design, this past Wednesday.
     Wednesday was the day my principal, asst. principal and I had a meeting. Thinking this gathering probably had something to do with the five students enrolled in my class this year, I wasn't alarmed. I didn't like the idea of such a small class and I know my principal didn't either, because we exchanged emails during the summer pretty much saying this exact thing. Interestingly enough, in my principal's last email to me she wrote, "I don't have any control over moving you within the district. That will have to come from a power greater than me."  He he. I was thinking, "Yes, it will: God."
     My principal opened our conference with, "Per our emails, I don't know of any plans the district has of moving you to another school, but I am hiring another second grade teacher. Now, you are probably wondering what this has to do with you, but because we have a new teacher in second grade, we need a classroom for her. The Gifted and Talented teacher's room is on the second grade hallway and she needs a room. Since you only have five students, we thought it would be best to move you and let the GT teacher have your room. Here's our solution for you, you'll stay in fourth grade, and how would you like to team teach with ---?"
     My first reaction when I heard 'second grade' was panic, because I feared I was being moved to teach second grade. Whew! Dodged that bullet. (I prefer teaching older students.) But then I jolted to attention when I heard the words, 'team teaching,' smiled broadly at both principals and happily said, "Yes!"     
     This conversation took place two days before "Meet the Teacher," which was Friday at 4pm. This was also the third time I'd be changing classrooms in two years, and yet I was thrilled at the news. Attitude really IS everything, as I've learned the hard way.
     But I was mostly enchanted by the prospect of moving because I realized almost immediately what was going to happen: my room was going to disappear. I'd been wondering what I going to do with 16 years of accumulated 'stuff' when I changed careers. Now I had my answer: give it away, or throw it away. Nice, Lord, thanks.
      My roomie has graciously given me a nice corner of her room, complete with  a window, a sink and shelves; I got rid of a TON of junk, put books in storage, settled in for "Meet the Teacher," and the first week of school, all told the move took about a day and a half. Amazing. PTL
     At the end of this school year, then, I will only have my 'necessities.' Not much packing involved, or needed. And, when you think about Life, all we need is God. He'll take care of the rest.

"I am a little pencil in the hand of a writing God who is sending a love letter to the world." Mother Theresa

Friday, August 13, 2010

The Last Dream of Summer

Hello world-wide-web,
      Thank you Lord for the health of all babies; special prayers for those who are married, single, in sickness, have no one to pray for them, and for those who don't believe. In Your Name Lord. Amen.
      Last night's dream was wonderful. It featured Jude Law. Pictured here waving, as if he were my neighbor, which in my dream, he was my neighbor.

In my dream, he is married to a wonderful friend of mine who I haven't seen in ages: Marian; she's Asian. Marian, Michelle (a co-worker) and I are teachers and we're discussing when we are going to retire. (I am not going to retire anytime soon, but that's what we were talking about...) Michelle said, "5 years." Marian said, "Six weeks." 
"Six weeks!" Michelle and I echoed in unison.
Apparently Marian had a serious illness, though she looked to be in perfect health, and was not given much time left to live. She decided she would stop teaching and stay home with her family.
Michelle, Marian and I are on the second floor of a gorgeous, old, two-story house, (a house not unlike my g-ma's house in EP) sorting clothes, or papers, who knows, I really had no clue what the 'things' were we were sorting. Then the three of us start our bible study (?!), and from where we are sitting, we can see into the house across the street - Marian's house- which has large windows. Jude Law is buffing the floors of his and Marian's house, but it's not a stand-up buffing machine, it's one where you sit down, so we can only see Jude Law's head moving from room to room.
He doesn't look like this,
but more like this, as  he's buffing.
 
Mairan said that cleaning helps Jude deal with any anger issues he has at work. Marian further explains that her and Jude didn't even realize Jude had anger issues until he came home one day and was yelling at Marian over something small and inconsequential. They sought counseling and that's when the therapist realized Jude had a knack for cleaning. Jude Law was calm and happy whenever he had a sponge, or a vacuum, in his hand. Thus, while Marian is at my house for bible study with Michelle and I, Jude cleans.
For some reason the dream shifts to another scene and I'm watching Jude Law walk with a blond on his arm. She has on tight-fitting, work-out clothes. I wonder if Jude Law is having an affair with this blond.
Then the scene shifts back to where the three of us are studying the bible. The doorbell rings. It's Jude, he's come for Marian, and has that blond that I saw him with earlier, standing next to him. Marian becomes hysterical when she sees who Jude is with and slaps his face, running to her home. The blond leaves and Jude Law runs after the blond.
Michelle and I are taking whatever things we were sorting over to Marian's house, but we can't find her anywhere. Jude Law is telling us where to put Marian's things. We are afraid to ask where she is and find out what's happening.
For some reason I 'sense' that Marian dies, though there isn't a funeral, or casket or anything, and since Jude Law is single once again, I wonder if Jude would be interested in having drinks with me...
The photo below is how I imagine Jude Law will look before we leave to grab a beverage together:

Oh, dreaming is fun, isn't it?



"I am a little pencil in the hand of a writing God who is sending a love letter to the world." Mother Theresa

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Summer 2010 in review

Hello world-wide-web,
     Thank you Lord for blessing all gatherings this summer. I am truly sanctified by the family and friendships I have. I pray for each and every pair of eyes reading this blog - may you find peace and happiness all the days of your lives. In Jesus' Name. Amen.
     I am not counting down the days for when I return to work - I am only vaguely aware I need to return to school and 'put up' my classroom sometime during the coming week - but rather I am reflecting on how wonderful this summer has been. I say wonderful even though I am taking an Ethics class! The Ethics class is getting counted down: four days. Please pray for my success on the final. Thanks.
     June: When I realized I wasn't going to work for the school district in any sort of capacity, I looked at my summer differently than I have summers past. I began to think of Dallas differently. I thought this summer would be a great time to discover, and in some cases re-discover, the nooks and crannies of the city. I planned to take my camera and peruse downtown, take photos of different places, and just explore the metroplex. Well anyone who is a teacher can tell you that you need at least a week of down time after a school year before you can start to enjoy your time off and get things done. That's what I did too: walking my dog in the park every morning, the occasional nap, watching television with my mom in the afternoon, writing, or puttering around on the world-wide-web. Then a blessing occurred: I unexpectantly received a check in the mail, from the re-financing of my home. Sweet. The summer was beginning with a bang and was wide open with possibilities!
     I need to take a quick detour from my summer reminiscing to talk about tithing for a moment. If you belong to a church, I highly recommend tithing. (If you don't belong to a church, what's keepin' ya? ;) Get connected to God! Your life will be so much more than it is right now at this moment. You will be amazed at how good you feel about life, despite it's many problems. I feel more secure with my place in the world knowing a Great and Almighty God has my back.) I have not always been a big supporter of giving my cash away, but recently, when I was short on cash and feeling sick about how my money controlled my mood, I gave some money to church, seeking relief from the strain money was putting on me. It worked. I felt less of a drain and then bam! this check in the mail. I heard a voice inside of me say, "You need to give (insert a lg amt of $$) to the church." Immediately after this thought, I was like, "Okay." Then I started to bargain with God. I gave up this tiny prayer, "God you need to give me a sign if this is indeed the amount you want me to give to the church..." I was climbing into my car to run some errands when my phone rang. It was my principal. I answered with a happy hello. She wanted to know if I could work three weeks of summer school in a second grade bilingual class. Before she finished her sentence I said, "Yes." Simultaneously I thought to myself, "All right, Lord, this is the amount you want me to give, b/c you are already replacing it." Tithe today. You will  be consecrated.
     And with that phone call, my plans for exploring Dallas were pretty much put aside as I worked 7:30 to 12:15 each day, and then my Ethics class began on Tuesday nights. I was tied up with both too much to do anything else. But I enjoyed every minute of every day. My students were adorable - a nice change from the fourth graders I deal with during the regular year; these students were physically smaller and shorter, and they laughed more readily at silly things I said or did. (Fourth graders sometimes think they are too cool for school.) The  material was fun to teach, especially since it was all new to me. My co-workers were fabulous. It was easy money.
    The closest I got to taking photos was when Carlton and I took pictures with some of my favorite art in the metroplex, the two giants in Deep Ellum. Those pics have already been posted. Good times.
     I didn't get a chance to do any of the other things on my list for summer, but no matter. I did what I was supposed to do: be present in the moment. Once the summer took off I just rode the wave with it. No looking back, only moving forward.
     Last week of June: A dear friend of mine had a gorgeous baby girl at the end of this month. I have to boast and say I was the only one who knew the baby was going to be a girl. Everyone else pretty much thought she was a boy. Even when I 'caved' at the very end and said I too thought it was a boy, in my heart I kept thinking, "But really, it's a girl." I am thrilled for my good friend and got to see momma and baby more than most because of my time off. Blessings.
     July: when summer school was over, I concentrated on organizing my house. I know, pretty dull way to spend your summer vacay, but actually it was interesting to go through things I haven't paid much attention to since moving into my house six years ago. I found all kinds of cool CDs that I hadn't listened to, as well as some things I'd written about in the past...got rid of books I didn't need. It was all good.
     I went on a great date. For the sake of privacy, that's all I'm reporting at the moment.
     Last week of July: had a wonderful bday dinner with good friends. My brother bought me tickets to a Led Zep tribute band, so after dinner we all went to the concert.  I googled some Led Zep questions for everyone to answer at dinner. In addition to the questions, I printed out some sentences with information about the band. Everyone had to read a sentence in their best British accent. :) The band was awesome and we ended the night at my favorite local diner, "Buzz Brews."
      When I registered for my Fall class, I was informed I only have three classes before I will have completed my masters! YEAH. Blessings.
     August: (yet to be done...)
     Be happy where God plants you - you are here for a reason. :)

"I am a little pencil in the hand of a writing God who is sending a love letter to the world." Mother Theresa

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Pianos!

Hello world-wide-web,
     Heavenly Father, I want to thank you for my many friends. My life is truly a blessing because of them, and had you not brought them into my life, my existence would be mundane indeed. Thanks God!
     My birthday is coming up soon and I started thinking about gifts for myself. Well, I pretty much have everything I could want, PTL, but then I started thinking about pianos. I have an 'okay' upright, but if I had my choice, a brand-new piano would be excellent. This train of thought led me to google pictures of various pianos - just to kind of tease myself about what kind I would buy. So, for the moment anyway, these fantasies will do. Enjoy. (The pianos in this blog are courtesy of Piano sales Piano restoration website.)
This Peace Piano survived Hiroshima.
This is the largest piano in the world .

Cool piano

The Grand piano cake
Yummy

Piano building in China. The neck of the violin is an elevator.

Wouldn't it be cool if these stairs made sounds when you stepped on them?
Made in shop window.
Walking piano.
Space-aged
Tossin' the guys a bone with this one



"I am a little pencil in the hand of a writing God who is sending a love letter to the world." Mother Theresa

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Sensuous

Hello world-wide-web,
     Thank you Heavenly Father for all answered prayers and for all the blessings you bestow on us each and every day. In Jesus' Name. Amen.
This past weekend I went to Deep Ellum and attended "girlshow:the perfect ten." There were many talented artists - from painters, girl bands, to photography, and poetry. In the background, between sets, a Fiona Apple song played. I told my brother, "I remember this song. I like this album, I wonder if I still have it?" Fiona fit in perfectly with the atmosphere. I filed, "Look for Fiona Apple CD," in the back of my mind.
A band called the DemiGods had some of their musicians at the show. I bought two of their CD's -both are solo projects. One of the CD's is by Jamie Reeves, a talented singer/guitarist. Her CD is entitled, "2038: A Message through Time," with an artfully done cartoon drawing of Jamie on the cover. The other CD is labeled, "The Long Countdown: Delphi." If you'd like to sample some of their music, search for them on myspace.com because it's worth a listen. Jamie has a strong voice with lots of range. She is a strong, independent, intelligent up-and-coming young artist. It was a privilege to meet her after she played her song, "Kismet."
Jamie's music reminded me even more of Ms. Apple, so I looked through my CD's yesterday and sure enough, there was the 1996 release Tidal, that has the Grammy-award winning song, Criminal, on it.
Fiona Apple is all of  32 years old and 5'2", but has the sound of a six foot, fifty year old blues singer. Simply amazing. Her lyrics are sensuous and appealing. Perfect if you are in a dark mood, or even when you aren't in a opaque mood, but are angry at relationships gone awry. And let's face it: who hasn't had a relationship go amiss? So really the CD is adept for anytime, but especially in those situations. As I listen to her CD for the umpteenth time today, I find myself listening to her lyrics closer than ever before and sinking into the moods she creates with the music: a uniting of  the mellow and the passionate. Her songs are flawlessly orchestrated with piano, violin, some luscious Latin rhythms, and then of course bringing all of these splendid sounds to crescendo, her immaculate voice.
A couple of songs have stood out for me this go-round of listening, the sixth track, "The First Taste," and the third track,"Shadowboxer."
God bless ALL forms of relationships. Amen.

"Dude, she was in love with you!"
"Yes, she was..."

"I am a little pencil in the hand of a writing God who is sending a love letter to the world." Mother Theresa

Fiona Apple - Shadowboxer




Shadowboxer:
Once my lover, now my friend
What a cruel thing to pretend
What a cunning way to condescend
Once my lover, and now my friend

Oh, you creep up like the clouds

And you set my soul at ease
Then you let your love abound
And you bring me to my knees

Oh, it's evil babe
The way you let your grace enrapture me
Well you know I'd be insane
To ever let that dirty game recapture me

You made me a shadowboxer, baby
I wanna be ready for what you do
I been swinging around 'cause
I don't know when you're gonna make your move

Oh, your gaze is dangerous
And you fill your space so sweet
If I let you get too close
You'll set your spell on me

These stanzas are particularly poignant:
So darlin' I just wanna say
Just in case I don't come through
I was onto every play
I just wanted you

Oh it's so evil, my love
The way you've no reverence to my concern
So I'll be sure to stay wary of you, love
To save the pain of once my flame and twice my burn

So I'm a shadowboxer, baby
I wanna be ready for what you do
I been swinging around at nothin
I don't know when you're gonna make your move

Yeah I'm a shadowboxer babyI wanna be ready for what you do
And I been swinging around me 'cause
I don't know when you're gonna make your move

More of her lyrics are at: http://www.lyricsfreak.com/f/fiona+apple/#share

"I am a little pencil in the hand of a writing God who is sending a love letter to the world." Mother Theresa

Fiona Apple - The First Taste



The First Taste:

I lie in an early bed thinking late thoughts
Waiting for the black to replace my blue
I do not struggle in your web because it was my aim to get caught
But daddy longlegs, I feel that I'm finally growing weary

Of waiting to be consumed by you

Give me the first taste
Let it begin, heaven cannot wait forever
Darling just start the chase
I'll let you win, but you must make the endeavor

Oh, your love give me a heart contusion

Adagio breezes fill my skin with sudden red
Your hungry flirt borders intrusion
And I'm building memories on things we have not said
Full is not heavy as empty, not nearly my love

Not nearly my love, not nearly

Give me the first taste
Let it begin, heaven cannot wait forever
Darling, just start the chase
I'll let you win, but you must make the endeavor

The first taste
Let it begin, heaven cannot wait forever
Start the chase, I'll let you win
But you must make the endeavor

"I am a little pencil in the hand of a writing God who is sending a love letter to the world." Mother Theresa

Fiona apple - Carrion





Won't do no good to hold no seance
What's gone is gone, and you can't bring it back around
Won't do no good to hold no searchlight
You can't illuminate what time has anchored down

Oh, honey I've gone away
Honey I've gone away
I've gone away

Won't do no good to sing no love song
No sound could simulate the presence of a man
Won't do no good asking no questions
Your divination should acquaint you with the plan

Oh Honey I've gone away
Honey I've gone away
Honey, I've gone away

My feel for you, boy, is decaying in front of me
Like the carrion of a murdered prey
And all I want is to save you, honey
Or the strength to walk away

Won't do no good to go no distance
The space between us is as boundless as the dark
Won't do no good to throw no fist, babe
You can't intimidate me back into your arms

Because honey, I've gone away
I've gone away
I've gone away

I've gone away
I've gone away
I've gone away

My feel for you, boy, is decaying in front of me
Like the carrion of a murdered prey
And all I want is to save you, honey
Or the strength to walk away

I'm especially feelin' these lyrics:
My feel for you boy, is decaying in front of me
Like the carrion of a murdered prey
And all I want is to save you, honey
Or the strength to walk away
Oh my feel for you boy, is decaying right in front of me

Like the carrion of a, a murdered prey
And all I want is to save you, honey
Or the strength to walk away

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsfreak.com/f/fiona+apple/#share

"I am a little pencil in the hand of a writing God who is sending a love letter to the world." Mother Theresa

Fiona Apple - Sleep To Dream



This whole song just rings true for me...Please understand I am no Alanis Morissette - I am not angry; sad, yes, but not angry.
It seems Fiona and I have had similar relationship experiences. Yet another example about the universals in life and how beautifully music can link people.
To the person for whom these songs are meant, and I think you know who you are, I remember teasing you when I asked, "Now what is the reason I should put you in a blog?" Well here is a huge blow-out of blog entries about you.

I tell you how I feel, but you don't care
I say tell me the truth, but you don't dare
You say love is a hell you cannot bear
And I say gimme mine back and then go there - for all I care

I got my feet on the ground
And I don't go to sleep to dream
You got your head in the clouds
And you're not at all what you seem

This mind, this body
And this voice cannot be stifled by your deviant ways
So don't forget what I told you
Don't come around, I got my own hell to raise

I have never been so insulted in all my life
I could swallow the seas to wash down all this pride
First you run like a fool just to be at my side
And now you run like a fool
But you just run to hide, and I can't abide

I got my feet on the ground
And I don't go to sleep to dream
You got your head in the clouds
And you're not at all what you seem
This mind, this body
And this voice cannot be stifled by your deviant ways

So don't forget what I told you
Don't come around, I got my own hell to raise
Don't make it a big deal, don't be so sensitive
We're not playing a game anymore
You don't have to be so defensive

Don't you plead me your case, don't bother to explain
Don't even show me your face, ''cause it's a crying shame
Just go back to the rock from under which you came
Take the sorrow you gave and all the stakes you claim -
And don't forget the blame

I got my feet on the ground
And I don't go to sleep to dream
You got your head in the clouds
And you're not at all what you seem

This mind, this body
And this voice cannot be stifled by your deviant ways
So don't forget what I told you
Don't come around, I got my own hell to raise

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsfreak.com/f/fiona+apple/#share


"I am a little pencil in the hand of a writing God who is sending a love letter to the world." Mother Theresa

Sunday, July 11, 2010

I was in South Africa for the World Cup games!

Hello world-wide-web,
       Heavenly Father, I'm praying for the sick, for all undergoing surgery this week, for those waiting for a cure; for those suffering from an addiction of any sort and for those who have fallen away from You, Lord; for a strengthening of all marriages; for singles to stay true to You and Your teachings and for any prayers anyone has asked me to pray on their behalf. In Jesus' Name. Amen.
     Okay, so I was at the world cup in my dreams, but still, it felt real: I was on the field with some other people - yes, while a game was in progress I was on the gridiron - I become aware that I am an obstacle in the soccer match, though the players don't notice us, or seem to think it odd that non-players are in the competition; I don't remember who the two teams playing were, but I do remember thinking, "If my friends are watching right now they are probably asking, 'What is Debi doing? She needs to get out of there!'" Oh, and for some reason I have a ladder with me. I know, a ladder! The stadium in my dream was different from the one on television: this fairground had one side against a wall. I was next to that wall and in order for me to exit the green of course I had to cut across it, while holding onto my ladder. But I didn't immediately rush to the other side of the field; I watched the game a bit. The sphere was getting kicked around and flung in the air as gorgeous players fought over it. (Much the way that I wish to be fought over by two admirers, but that dream is for another blog entry.) I begin hoping the ball doesn't hit me. The globe ends up on a side opposite of where I am, so I make a mad dash to leave the arena. I suffered no injuries and rushed back to my classroom (?!) where the dream continued, but isn't amusing enough to add here.
Viva Espana!


"I am a little pencil in the hand of a writing God who is sending a love letter to the world." Mother Theresa

Monday, July 5, 2010

So you want to be in show business-

Hello world-wide-web,
     Thank you Jesus for all prayers answered, for travelers safe departure and return, for healthy births, for all those suffering from addiction and are in denial, a special intention for those with doctor's appointments-your healing, Lord, always-for a continued mending of the Gulf, for those who are in the hospitals and nursing homes, for everyone who has no one to pray for them, and most of all, Heavenly Father, thank you for the many blessings and mercy you bestow on each and every one of us everyday. In Jesus' Name. Amen.
     I received a rather unusual phone call from my g-y-n this past May.
     He asked me, "How would you like to be in a commercial?"
     "Sure."
(I didn't know what the commercial would entail, but when someone asks you to be in a commercial, ride in a sleigh drawn by huskies, or go to NYC's Times Square for NYE, you just say 'yes.')
     By saying 'sure,' my doctor informed me, I was accepting an offer from Baylor Hospital to describe the service I'd been given while in one of their facilities recently (see "I heart nurses," blog for more info on my hospital stay).
     My famous, or infamous, he he, appointment was set for June 18th, in the afternoon, but I wasn't ready for 'distinction' until I loaded two cute outfits in my car and ran by Regis at Collin Creek Mall in Plano for a quickie hairdo.
     Upon my arrival at the studio a good-looking guy greeted me and escorted me to the 'green' room. The room was in fact green, but that wasn't what first caught my attention when the door was opened. What first caught my attention was the honking huge television that dwarfed the green room. I recovered quickly from the size of the TV to notice two comfy couches and the people sitting on this lovely furniture.
     A distinguished gentleman in a finely tailored suit sat on one of the upholstered, while two attractive blond women sat on the love seat opposite him. When I entered the room one of the women hastily said, "Please sit here, I need to go anyway." The woman I sat next to was the person in charge of marketing for this project; turns out she is also the person who organizes juice and coffee for my district's convocation in the Fall. She and I chatted politely and she gave me a beautiful blue Baylor bag with goodies inside as a thank you for participating.
     My claims to fame were two-fold: first, glamour shots of me, then the filming of the commercial. But not until I had my make-up session. Baylor hospital hired professionals to do make-up on their volunteers, and touch-ups during the filming. Anyone who knows me, knows I don't like wearing make-up and this was no exception, even though the woman who did my make-up was sweet and flattering. She had a thing for people's eyes and took lots of time in highlighting mine. Thankfully the make-up didn't feel heavy on my face.
     The glamour photo shoot was fun. The good-looking guy that I met when I first walked in was my photographer.
     "What kind of music do you like?" He asked me.
     "Rock," I flashed a bright smile.
     "Cool, we were already listening to rock on Pandora so we won't need to change the channel." (There were two other guys besides the photographer in the room.)
     I was asked to sit on a bar stool in different positions. We took a few serious pictures, and then I had a blast making silly faces as the camera *clicked* away. I didn't realize it at the time, but people outside of the room could see the shenanigans going on in the studio! Funny. I had a good time and I hope they were laughing too.
     The commercial was a bit more grueling, serious and intense. I walked into a different studio where my make-up was refreshed. Not much laughing in this room. I stood alone, under bright lights. There were two men sitting at the camera. Behind these men was a long table where the woman interviewing me, a couple of other important looking people, and the make-up artist sat. I was only to look at the camera and answer her questions in complete sentences. She prompted me with a question, and then I answered. If she needed more information, she prodded me with more questions. I had to go into some detail about why I was in the hospital; details I will spare the reader. There were a couple of 'signature' statements I had to make; at the beginning I had to say, "My name is Debi ---- and this is my story." And at the end say, "I'm Debi ---- and that is my story." I was not allowed to mention the name of my doctor, or even Baylor. A couple of those sentences I had to re-do.
     I then switched gears to do the whole thing again, but this time in Spanish. I liked the Spanish questioner best. She was gentle and less abrupt. She also seemed to be listening to my story. The Spanish didn't seem to take as long, I'm not sure why that was; I guess it was partly because my interviewer knew how to get what she needed from me.
     The most agreeable moment for me was when the interviewer asked me what I wanted to say to women about their health. You'll need to watch the commercial to see how I answered.
     I was on a high when I left. Wow. What an experience. The commercial should be released sometime this Fall - November/December. I will be given a copy of all the photos taken and the commercial itself. I'll see if I find any photos or even the commercial worth posting.
     Until next time my friends, stay healthy!

"I am a little pencil in the hand of a writing God who is sending a love letter to the world." Mother Theresa

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