The silent sadness*

Heavenly Father,
This is the hope I have for my tears: that they may be united with Christ's suffering, and "for the sake of His sorrowful passion, (that God) have mercy on us & on the whole world," as the words of the Divine Mercy prayer implores our Lord and Savior.
I know too that the depth of one's sadness can also be a measure of one's capacity for joy.
In Jesus' name. Amen.

A tremendous heart-felt thank you to my friend Mary W.
I read her blog the other day; she spoke to the fear she had when her doctor told her there was a "thickness in one of her breasts," to which she later found out was nothing, PTL; but that experience, and how she expressed her fear, gives me the courage to put these words on my blog and be vulnerable to my readers.
So thank you Mary!
& to Mary, the Mother of our Savior, a very reverent thank you, because when she was told that a "sword would pierce her heart" for the suffering she was to receive on seeing her only Son crucified, she gave us a model of how to handle intense anguish - putting our faith in God's will.

The "lacerations" I feel from my depression* provide me with colossal more compassion for the legion of atrocities both in the world and on a local scale, than if I didn't suffer from the little d.
I'm less judgmental of others and more open to forgiveness.
I'm actually happier after walking through my winter.
I find I also understand the word Love - as a verb - better.

 

Never underestimate the power of agony.

 

Our world has a compulsion to feel better, happier, and offers a plethora of imbecilic things to satiate not only our insecurities, but all the dark places in our souls no one wants to talk about, or even acknowledge, and this is not the correct way to deal with our "sacred suffering!"

I'm warning you world, I do want to feel bad! LOL

Feeling bad puts feeling good in proper perspective.

Next time you feel yourself low, feel the low. Thank your emotion, learn from the emotion, and then cheer up again, as this is a temporary state of being.
If you feel yourself severely decumbent and for a longer than usual period of time, seek help, yes, but also feel the lowness. Seek to learn from the subjacent and don't be so quick to dismiss the lowering; if you cling to your torment you just might find some terrific insight about yourself, or the world around you, or draw yourself closer to Jesus.

"I am a little pencil in the hand of a writing God who is sending a love letter to the world." Mother Theresa